In life you love a lot of people from all your heart. You want to see them happy and healthy. You are blessed if at least half of the people you love are happy.
It is extremely painful to see someone suffer heart-breaks and disappointments and feel helpless.
It is extremely painful to know that you can do nothing about their misery, but still have to watch them come past their bad times. Did I say ‘come past’? I wish they come past all the bad times in just a few seconds, but it takes longer when you desperately want things to get better.
Life is sadistic I feel. When there is a reason for you to feel happy, something goes terribly wrong for you and the people around.
I have realized that it is important for people you love to be happy in life for you to be happy.
My parents are having a bad time. I am surprised at how I am writing such a negative and personal thing on a blog! But that’s how disturbed I am. I am a very inexpressive girl right from childhood. My silence has cost me a lot of things, well not things, relationships. I can never express. I don’t feel bad about it, that’s who I am. People who really care do know what I am.
I love my dad. He is a great man, a very good person at heart. I have always looked up to him. But, have I expressed this to him? No. I can never speak fancy. From my childhood I have only heard people complain about him, say things about him etc., this has hurt me a lot, but it has only made my love for him stronger. I know he is a great man and the best dad one could ever get.
I love my mother equally. If I am what I am, it’s because of her. She has taught me life’s most important lessons and some people love me for who I am at heart. She is an ideal person, one who is strong enough to stand by her principles even when she knows she is falling, falling real low. Respect is what I have for her.
It is very hard to see them unhappy, harder to know that I can’t help. I can only pray for good times. But, belief in God and hopes for a better future are very tricky things. It’s extremely hard to hold on to your beliefs and have hopes!! But do I have an option? Sadly, no.
That's the reason the loved ones have people who love them, their loved ones. To soothe them and help them get over their grief. To give them encouragement and strength. That's why we have loved ones,to get on with life.
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