Friend, I miss you!

Relationships have an expiry date. Friendships have an expiry date. Really? I guess I have to accept the bitter truth about relationships now. I have always believed that relationships cant change, they just go into the dark for sometime and then when you want them back they are there. But I was wrong!

Yesterday I had this very long conversation with an old friend of mine, a friend from school. We hadn't spoken in ages! 

Old friends are like angels. I don't know why I say that, but there is something about them and the way they make me feel that makes me say that. May be because they make me feel like a child and take me back to times I can never go back to otherwise? May be.

I asked my friend why he was not keeping in touch with me regularly. I keep asking the same thing every time I speak to him. I value his relationship and it really matters a lot to me. But, the effort of keeping the relationship alive is sky rocketing! Once he told me that he can’t talk to me whenever he wants because I am married. Earlier he did not have to do the thinking before calling me up. Suddenly my identity is the problem. What’s wrong in talking to a married girl like you used to? I don't know!

Women are always judged by their identity. A woman is always someone's daughter or someone's wife! Isn't it unfair befriending an identity instead of a real person? Can a woman never have friends? Or are they all just short lived? I would just say its lack of passion and commitment in everything people indulge in. Friendships don't have any value I would say, may be because they are immaterial.

It takes so long to build something as beautiful as friendship and there are really only a handful of friends who you can have for life. And when you have made such friends, friends who you feel proud of having, you just lose them because your second name changed! Nonsense I say. But that's how it is, good or bad.

We make real friends at school. That’s when we are ourselves. They know what we are and what we became. They can keep the original self alive and recognize us the way we were at school. It’s a pity that all that has to change because of something very silly! 

I miss my friend today. How I wish my friendship was cherished the way I cherish his friendship!